Lifestory

2010-08-21T17:24:00.002+08:00

2010-08-13T17:24:00.002+08:00

2010-08-05T12:55:00.003+08:00

2010-07-22T17:16:00.002+08:00

2010-07-08T20:01:00.002+08:00

Ive been thinking about it. Should I? I can't stand it every single time he forces me around to say things that I don't want to. Why can't he just give me a personal space. Do I exactly have to tell him everything. It's really sickening. And it's making me feel so suffocating. If Morrie can, why can't I ? I felt really regret. He's just not my type of man now. I feels no more love now.

2010-06-21T20:52:00.002+08:00

When it comes to giving someone a gift, most people will look for a something that stands out or in some way shows how much they care about someone.

Giving a gift to show a person how much they mean to you does not have to cost a fortune, In fact there is no better way to show your love than to spend some time with them, showing the care, love, believe and trust.

Try not to focus too much on physical things, consider the persons likes, dislikes, things they say and most importantly the little gestures they make that make you smile. And for sure, that will be perfectly enough. Not more than that or less.

Dearest Syaridzwan,

What I love about you is,

How you are always 100% honest no matter what. The way you are always happy first thing in the morning when I am grumpy. The way you take pride in how you look. The compliments you give me. The way you touch my face when we kiss. The little looks you give me when we are around friends. Your loyalty to me and everyone or everything that matters to you. Your compassion for everyone around you, selflessness, integrity, strength, devotion, kindess, smile and intelligence. The way you hold me. The way you liven up a room just by being in it. How much you have taught me about life and myself. The fact that you are good at fixing things or putting things together by hand. Your zest for life. I love to wake up with you by my side, it makes my days better. You always make me feel that you are by my side no matter what. I love that feeling of being secure when you wrap your arms around me. I love the way you keep your cool when I do something stupid. Just being with you feels like I can defy the whole world. You mean the world to me. I like your small gestures that speak volumes about how much you care.

"You are the beat in my heart, you are the fear in my soul, you are the tears I cry, you" are my world.
I know I screwed it up every single time - but I will love you forever.

When you're away, I can't stand missing you so much.

And on Thursday, we gonna talk and talk and talk and talk. And then *chuckles*

I totally can't wait for you to come back !

So here I am waiting, 2 more days huh or less? Oh my god, life is such a bore without you.

Can we walk, run, stroll and play by the beach ?

And one day, I will make you this. Perhaps we use RED ones, ya *wink*

2010-06-21T11:40:00.002+08:00

Oh God, I miss you so much !

When I first wake up, I wish you were just beside me.

2010-06-17T23:05:00.002+08:00

I miss you. I don't what to do when you're far away. I hope you be back soon in one piece. Will be waiting here, crying. Have fun and take care.

2010-06-15T11:58:00.003+08:00

what you need,

what you deserve,
is a guy who adores you for what you are.
; not this.

When you came around, my whole world felt new. I opened up my eyes to the light and i saw deep inside of a love that was true and if I ever let you go, I’m hoping that some time will show, that you’re the one, you’re the one for me. But now, what a mistake.

No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing. Being lonely, being alone, for many people, sucks. I get it, I get it, I get it. But still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn’t honor the person you are is worse. Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with. You deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time.

2010-06-15T11:43:00.001+08:00

What's it to you? just leave me alone; I wanna live my own life for me, and not for anyone else, and i don't want anyone living their life for me. Just leave me alone.

2010-06-15T00:20:00.002+08:00

When you feel sad and betrayed Who can you count on every single day? When you feel lost and alone Who will be there for you in every way? When you’ve made mistakes and bad decisions Who can you count on to tell you you’re wrong? When you feel you can’t go on Who will be there with a feel-better song? Look into your heart and you will find That person you can trust is not far away. Look deep into yourself, don’t give up, For if you do, it’s yourself you’ll betray. When you’re looking for answers To all your questions and dreams, There is one person you can count on, It’s impossible, I know, it seems. But take a few moments to look deeper inside. Look into your heart and there you will see. You’ll be surprised when you find out That you’ve been looking at ME.

2010-06-12T21:54:00.000+08:00

Have a nice weekend everyone ;D

2010-06-08T11:22:00.002+08:00

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken, probably more than once and it hurts more every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it feels. You’ll blame a new love for what old one’s did. You’ll cry because time is passing by too fast. You’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh way too much and love like you have never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is one minute of happiness that you will never get back.

Everyone wants to hear that it’s gonna be okay, that the pain will go away. But truthfully, it won’t. It never does. You just get stronger everyday, but deep down, the pain is still there.

Sometimes, you just can’t tell anybody how you really feel. Not because you don’t know why, not because you don’t know your purpose, not because you can’t trust them; but because you can’t find the right words to make them understand.

2010-06-01T13:41:00.000+08:00

She yells because she cares; she cries because she’s frustrated. She randomly smiles because she’s thinking of you, even if you’re already there. She scrunches her face because she’s about to explode, not because she’s constipated. She hits you because she wants to touch you. She stares at you because she’s infatuated. She calls every half hour because she misses you. She lectures you because she’s boss, not mom. She kisses you because she just wants to. She asks you questions because she’s curious, not to be annoying. She wants to know where you are to be with you. She calls just to hear your voice. She walks beside you to hold your hand. She sits close to you to lean on your shoulder. She stands in front of you because she wants a hug. Just face it boy; she’s in love with you.

2010-05-29T13:50:00.000+08:00

Sometimes we get hurt, we say things we don’t mean, we fight, we get mad, we cry, we disappoint each other. Sometimes we laugh over nothing, smile at the littlest things, we talk about everything, we joke, we tease, we fall in love all over again. We’re only human.

2010-05-29T13:38:00.000+08:00

Awesome.

2010-05-29T13:37:00.000+08:00

*sobsob*

2010-05-28T12:39:00.000+08:00

2010-05-28T12:38:00.000+08:00

Don't ever lie to me ever again. Thank you. Now, fuck off.

2010-05-25T21:10:00.001+08:00

Five days without you. How possible?

2010-05-25T21:08:00.001+08:00

2010-05-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

2010-05-25T21:03:00.003+08:00

2010-05-25T21:00:00.002+08:00

Um, so you guys bad-mouthed, gossip, back stab and talk bull-shit. What more?

2010-05-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

I’m not angry la i’m just irritated and pissed with all this. i knew this gonna happened, but i didn’t know all this gonna happened now.

I’m a girl. And so are you. You and me. we are two different kinds of people. All i want from you is to be sincere with everything you’re giving me and vice versa. I don’t want you talk bad about me, I don’t want you to tell lies about me. I don’t want you be like a maniac, in front of me you’ll be very nice but behind my back you’ll talk bad about me like oh god only knows. come on, I trusted you and you know it yourself.

Yes I can’t afford to lose you because i thought you’re one of the nicest things that has happened in my life. But I guess I wrong?

2010-05-21T21:33:00.003+08:00

That's what I wanna say. After what happened just now, I know you worried and all I think you're so pissed because I kept rejecting your call and whatsoever.
Well you know me when I'm pissed.

2010-05-18T21:51:00.001+08:00

Specially for you, baby.

Shall get back to blog again. Since I feel like I want to C:

Arina, xoxo

2010-05-05T17:03:00.001+08:00

I really love this guy but at times I feel pressure then, when I have to talk to him about my feelings and so on. I wanted to change the amount of time that both of us spend together. All I want is to be alone, respect what I wants and don'ts. And there are times when I just want to do other things that don't involve you. I don't know how to separate myself from you. I'm still young and I need space to learn and grow. How should I say all this to you, when maybe you would think that I'm just thinking of my own and you would feel put aside.

Hmm, Allah take me away.

Do I still love him? :\

2010-04-01T21:15:00.001+08:00

HOHO, It's been such a long time since I've update this blog. So gonna blog about my peers having a chio-ing time with her annoying friend. So now gonna give some tips.

Firstly, determine what exactly is annoying about this friend, and decide whether the problem is really with your friend or with you. If you're overly sensitive about something your friend does that isn't necessarily annoying, see if this is something you can just put aside. If not, you need to mention your feelings to your friend.

Bring up your feelings with your friend to let her know that her behavior bothers you. If she's willing, see if the two of you can work together to improve her annoying behavior. Let her know how much you value your friendship with her so it doesn't just come across as criticism.

Help her work on stopping this behavior if he agrees, using whatever method she thinks will work. If she starts again, remind her what a great friendship you have and do whatever you've agreed to help her stop.

Ignore the behavior if it keeps happening, and remind yourself how much you value her friendship. Chances are something in her life it making her have these behaviors, especially if what makes her annoying is that she's too clingy or overbearing. Sometimes, though, it's just her personality.

End the friendship if you feel that you can't get over her annoyances and she won't stop being annoying.

So better off still just end the freaking friendship, there are better other friends out there. Why suffer more. Hmm saying all this, remind me of my own self.

AM ANNOYED !

2010-03-13T21:41:00.002+08:00

When someone is in your life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. He has come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. He is there to meet a need. Then without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, he will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes he dies(touch wood). Sometimes he walks away. Sometimes he acts up or out and forces you to take a stand. What we must realize is that the need has been met. When a person comes into your life for a season, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. He may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. He may teach you something you have never done. He usually gives you an unbelievable amount of joy. Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons. Those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. You must accept the lesson, love the person or people anyway, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

And the lifetime he-friend is none other, Syaridzwan.

It's the Saturday. And I'm bored at home. Bie, having a 3 days residential camp. I hope that I'm able to meet him on Sunday, which is like tomorrow.

And the very next next day, it's my turn gonna have a camp. Not so looking forward though but oh well just have to join in.

My body have been itchy today. I wonder why.

Hmmmm.

It's the FOURTH baybeh

2010-03-12T00:32:00.003+08:00

Time flies really fast. And by then we've been together for like 4 months. I'm glad to be with you. I'm sorry to give you all the troubles. And from what you showed, I realised that you really love me so much and you endured with all my stiff actions. I'm surprised, I never thought someone would really stand it. Months passes by, my trust,love and respect for you keeps increasing. I'm sorry to react that I've forgotten but I didn't.

I couldn't keep my face not to smile this day
As I wake up, the sun's so bright shinning into my window
Too many things to do, for this day is so special
Wondering what magic would happen this day

I want it to keep it simple yet very special
A day we both won't forget and will cherish
Something romantic and something so sweet
Because this is our fourth monthsary my sweet

I couldn't hide how much love I have for you
Every kiss I have with you feels like first
No denying my love for you is overflowing
And I hope this day would be mean so much to you.

Babylove, I love and adore you so much.

Spread the love everyone ;D

2010-03-08T17:55:00.002+08:00

Back to blogging after donkey of years, missing in action. Good thing I'm back to blog. So I'm gonna blog about best friend. Warning : It's not for meant for someone. It's just some opinion that I thought myself. So don't get me wrong, I'm not referring to anymore. If you felt that it's you, pardon me.

We are humans with different kinds of personality. God wants us to live our lifes differently so that we can discover what's the true meaning of life. I wanna apologise to every mistakes that I have done even though it's not even Hari Raya ^^

So let's start typing.

Having some misunderstandings with one of your most bestest best friend? Oh well, cheer up. Even though you kinda lost contact with them, you still have the others. If you wanna check yourself if you have been the greatest friend, you are at the right blog. Haha. So this is what I thought ;

'Be your own best friend first'

Learn how to respect yourself first. Decide what kind of boundaries are important to you and respect them fairly. Understand what values are important to you, so stick by them and seek others who honor those values seriously.

'Be loyal'

Stick up for your friend when they need it. Respect those times when they need to stick up for themselves.Trust your friend and allow yourself to be vulnerable with them. Do try also come to understand their limits and say 'NO' when you need to while still being their friend. A friend of integrity is of great value. It is the fact that through ups and downs, and disagreements, you still seek to work things out and be their friend that truly demonstrates your loyalty.

'Look out for him or her If his best friend or friend falls down, then try and cheer him or her up in anyway that you think would help'

Like a joke or surprise them. DO something nice that they wouldn't expect it to happen.

'Listen'

Nobody likes a best friend who just talks and talks, but never listens. If you're a chatterbox, it's okay if you're also a good listener. Whenever your best friend says something, listen carefully and say something. Don't just say "yeah" and move on. Don't interrupt or fidget continually while they're talking to you. If they ask for advice, listen carefully and give them the best advice you can. It'll earn you respect and of course, make them come to you more.

'Be trustworthy'

If they tell you a secret, keep it. Don't even leak it out to someone you know you can trust. A secret is a secret. Don't gossip about your best friend, don't say anything that might turn into a rumor, and don't do things that you know would upset them. For example, if she or he had a crush on a cute guy, she would be embarrassed if you told someone. Make sure you know your best friend is okay with it. Things like that are sometimes hard to do, but if you want a solid friendship you have to be trustworthy.

'Stick up for them'

Sitting and watching your best friend get picked on or teased is definitely you're not her greatest pal. If your best friend is getting seriously bullied and you're scared you'll get hurt if you get involved, then get help from a other friends or teacher or parents. If you can stick up for them without getting harmed yourself, make sure you do so. Sometimes you can feel totally better after being picked on when a friend tells everyone else to shut up and clear off.

'Spend time together'

Hang out on the weekends or plan activities together every now and then, do some homework together, and chat during break at school. You don't have to live in each others' pockets, but make sure you spend some quality time together with your best friend to make the friendship grow and become stronger.

'Be yourself'

Being yourself around someone is part of what makes you guys best friends. Be best friends with someone who you know you can be yourself around, because it isn't worth it trying to be someone you're not so you can be closer to someone. Don't hold things in either, so if you feel uncomfortable or have hard feelings against your best friend, talk about it with them. Make things comfortable between you two, and you'll both go through thick and thin together.

'Care for your best friend'

If they're away from home, send them cards or care packages to show that you care. If they're sick, call them and ask how they are doing. Best friends care for each other. Show them you appreciate their presence in your life. Write them notes to show that you care and are thankful for them, and ask about their lives. Share your own stories, but make sure you have time for them.

'Avoid Expectations'

If you assume what best friends' roles are, you will get disappointed and frustrated. Best friends are one of the most valuable friends you have, but they cannot help or support you in every aspect of your life. Do not expect them to always be there, or expect them to say the thing you want to hear. If there are expectations your Best friends need to reach, that will only leave you in a disappointing defeat. Be nice, do not email them saying they are a liar or you won't feel so good.

'Share laughs'

There is nothing like laughing and smiling to bring people together.

'Be yourself'

You are who you are, and your best friend will accept that. Being "fake" could lead you to losing your best friend.

So to summarize all, be nice to them, be confident and loyal, stick up to them, try not to go a bit over the top with it, let them choose what they want to do first instead of arguing, have a good time with her, be grateful for her, never start rumors about your best friend and remember a best friend will like you for who you are. If there are not, better chance to look for another better one.

I know having a best friend can be hard. And chances are you may end up fighting or drifting apart. If this happens don't sulk about it. Just move on. This will take time and effort. Be ready to put your best, most sincere foot forward.Don't ever take someone's side over your best friend. Hence she is your best friend and the matter lies between you both. She may want to spend time with other friends or possibly her boyfriend, if they have to cancel plans with you, don't worry make other plans with other people and let them know your okay with it. But be sure to set new plans for another time when you know they will be able to. The person you're trying to impress may not want to be your friend. If this is the case don't get too close to them, move on and try becoming friends with someone who respects your values. Hence, listen to your best friend sometimes they can be right about other people who aren't your real friends.

Shucks, I have more to blog. But I'll just make it tomorrow. Have a good day.

2010-02-23T16:43:00.001+08:00

Heartbreak only consist of one thing its getting hurt and feeling the pain knowing you have to deal with it each and everyday that goes by. Its the kind of pain that you can never be immune to. No matter how many times you face it, and no matter how many times you feel it, you will be affected by the emptiness, the loneliness, and the new beginning. Its like starting all over again and forgetting about fairy tales and learning about non fiction. Life is a book of stories some are true, some are fake, sometimes it can lead to heartbreak. Its up to you to solve the puzzle for this is a life of mystery and your job is to be the detective.

Broken hearts are never healed. They haunt us for a lifetime even if we find someone else. Our past teaches us lessons that make us more aware and more human. Why then do we feel so hurt knowing it can only get better? Breaking up with someone you care about is one of the toughest decisions any of us will ever have to go through. Dealing with the pain and heart break is never easy. We just have to live the days as they are set out and not live in the past.

I don't really want to say goodbye. I don't really want to leave you. But now I have to go away. Stay away from you forever. What we had was something special. Deep down from our hearts. But now I have to go away. And leave you from my heart.

Unable to see, I can’t feel you. Some other time, Some other day can’t break away. Don’t touch me. Just leave me alone. Your lies pulled me closer, Wrapped me around your finger so gracefully.

At the end of the day, you just have to for the sake of our own self. We just got to leave from all the misery. And someone just have to walk off and do what she loves best.

-Toodles,
xoxo,Arina

2010-02-21T20:16:00.002+08:00

1) Every time I look at you, my heart misses a beat.

2)I like your small gestures that speak volumes about how much you care.

3)The fact that you are without a doubt my true soul mate.

4)The fact that you are the first and only person I’ve ever loved and the first person who ever truly loved me.

5)You bring out the best in me.

6)You have taught me what it is to love and be loved.

7)I can be clumsy and foolish when I am with you, yet know that your love for me will never diminish.

8)Being in your arms makes me feel like I can never be lost again.

9)We can talk about everything or nothing--it's always okay with you.

10)I can feel your love, in the warmth of your touch, 'cause it touches my heart and soul.

11)When we're together, time just comes to a halt.

12)Because of you, no matter what may come tomorrow, today my life is more complete.

13)Just a touch and I lose my heart all over again.

14)Whenever I need it most you're there with your all-purpose hugs.

15)Your innocence makes me forget all shady things of this world.

16)You are the only one who can make me smile even in my deepest sorrows.

17)I get lost in the depth of your mysterious eyes.

18)You always make me feel that you are by my side no matter what.

I wanted to give a full 20 reasons, why do I love you. But this is the only 18 I could come up with.

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky, I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why? Why do I love you? I think and smile, because I know the list could run on for miles. The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch, so many little things that make me love you so much. The way you support me, and help with my emotions, the way that you care and show such devotion. The way that your kiss, fills me with desire, and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire. The way your eyes shine when you look at me, lost with you forever is were I want to be. The way that I feel when you're by my side, a sense of completion and overflowing pride. The dreams that I dream, that all involve you, the possibilities I see and the things we can do. How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart, how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part. I could go on for days, telling of what I feel, but all you really must know is my love for you is real. I know I've not been there when you were sad, pissy, and etc. I'm just not good at comforting at people. No matter how I tried, no words can come out from my mouth. It might just make things worse due to the tone of my voice.

With all the plenty of fights, no matter what I still love you.

-Toodles
xoxo, Arina

2010-02-16T17:47:00.000+08:00

When I act shy you should have just say I love you.
When I run away you should have just chase me.
When I put my face near yours you should have just kiss me.
When I kick and punches you should have just hold me tight.
When I'm in silent I'm just thinking of how to say I Love you.
When I ignore you I want all of your attention.
When I say you are crazy or weird I am really crazy about you.
When I pulls away you should have just grab me by the waist and never let go.
When you see me at my worst you should have just tell me that I am beautiful.
When I scream at you, you should have just tell me that you love me. (but mean it).
When you see me walking you should have just sneak up behind me, grab me by the waist and give me a kiss as well.
When I'm scared you should have just hold me and tell me that everything will be okay cause you're with me.
When I look like somethings the matter you should have just kiss me and tell me not to worry.
When I hold your hand you should have just play with my fingers.

So why do we exactly fall in love? Loving and being loved adds richness to our lives. When we feel close to others they are happier and even healthier. Therefore, love helps us feel important, understood and secure. But do you realised that each kind of love has its own distinctive feel. And the kind of love we feel in romantic relationships is its own unique type of love. Isn't it true?

The 3 main magical ingredients of superb relationship is just attraction, closeness and commitment.

Seems like our relationship lack of closeness and commitment I guess. I know it's my fault for not sharing thoughts and feelings to you. I wish that I can have this feeling back where I feel fully supported, cared for, understood and accepted for who I am. And the most importantly trust. But falling for you is like falling in love for the first time. It's hard to tell the difference between the intense, new feelings of physical attraction and the deeper closeness that goes being in love.

Maybe the solution to this, we should start learning to give and receive. I should try to reveal my feeling. I need more of the support and care to reveal detail about myself about my likes and dislikes, dreams and worries, proud moments, disappointments, fears and weaknesses. Aren't those the things you wanna know from me? And lastly, listening and supporting. When two people care, they seems to be offering a support when the other person is feeling vulnerable or afraid. They don't put down or insult, even when they disagree.

I guess in this way our relationship could gradually builds into a place of openness, trust and support where each of us know that the other will be there when times are tough.

At the end of the day, Romance provides us with a chance to discover our own selves as we share with someone new. We learn the things we love about ourselves, the things we'd like to change, and the qualities and values we look for in a partner. Loving relationships teach us self-respect as well as respect for others. Love is one of the most fulfilling things we can have in our lives.

Nonetheless, I just wanna say sorry for troubling you, pissing you off, make your blood boils every single time, hopeless, cheater, a liar-tell lies, betrayal asshole and ALWAYS KEEP THINGS TO MYSELF kind of girlfriend. It seems like I don't earn your trust. I don't deserve them. Hence, I don't regret having you, I don't hate you, I still love you as always, have think twice not to leave you either.

Shall we just forget it with the snap of a finger and start a fresh, pretty please. It's super sad seeing you emo-shit somewhere in Singapore.

My eyes are puff. May Allah give me the strength to live again. And only Allah know how I feel now. I'll end my post here.

-xoxo, Arina

2010-02-15T21:38:00.005+08:00

This the month. The month that I cried most I guess. It happens again and again and again. And now it's my fault. My eyes are puffed up. And I'm feeling so not good at all.

Thinking back just bring goosebumps. Every single time you fight, you will have this weird unexplainable feeling which feels so god damn awful, your heart breaks to pieces, you are filled with angered and unsatisfied and lastly you feeling like throwing tantrums everywhere.

It's been always you. But now me.

Hmm, what shall I do now? Smile like a mad woman.

You know what :

We should learnt to compromise with each other and even learnt how to complement each other using our different strengths and weaknesses. We should also improved on our communication and learnt never to take each other for granted.

Sweet love of my life, Goodbye.
[It's just a song title]

Will update.

Love can knocks you down

2010-02-06T21:25:00.003+08:00

As I sit here listening to the fight going on. Between my head and my heart. My head says, I'm the fool while my heart says, I love him so much. My head says, He will hurt you again. My heart says, But he always make me happy. My head says, Look at all the tears he made you cry. My heart says, Yes. But he also gives me pleasure. My head says, You are strong, so get over him. My heart say, He make me feel alive and whole. I need him and I love him. Without him I would only be existing. I slowly shake my head, No. Knowing that my heart has won once more. I'm loss for words. Means I don't what more to say. I'm too numb for words. Means my lips won't part.

"He is a good guy. A well balance guy.
Who knows how to fool around and know when to get serious.
I've always consider you as a lover, a gentleman, a friend."

So I sit here alone, with the wind blowing through my hair, with the tears I've cried so many times slowly falling down my face missing you so much and thinking. Thinking of the moments and memories we've shared together, the good and the bad times, the happy and the sad, the laughter and tears, the forgotten worries and fears.

I shall take back my hurting words that I've told you. Cause now, I thought back, you're like my everything. My sun, my moon, my stars that light the sky. You lift me even higher than any other person has before. You complete me. If possible having him standing by my side, supporting me through everything life throws at us, my life will be the best.

I just hope that one day I will be able to show how much I actually do love you and how much I really need you in my life as he keeps going, he's my purpose, my reason and my will power to carry on from all those hurty do's and say's. I didn't really mean it. If you're angry, you'll most likely do stupid mistakes that you wouldn't want to do at all and after that you will regret it.

After those fights, this is all I can say. I just realised that it's not easy to portray that sense of grief and confusion through words. It's just simply hard.

I also realised once a relationship becomes more established people start to show their true personality same goes like you're marrying someone. When something unsettling happens both people try to handle things as calmly and diplomatically as possible. Hurt feelings are sucked up and nothing is said. Once the relationship is more established when those same unsettling things happen the person who is bothered speaks up. With the rules suddenly changed the person on the receiving end of the upset feels confused and defensive.

If we keep having fights should we just end it or keep creating a new beginning? I always tried to fight it fair for myself but sometime things got out of control. I tried my best to survive, control those tears and be as patience I can be. But it makes the relationship more stronger than ever and there are times they don't at all.

Never ever think negatively. There are always sign that the our relationship is moving to a new, more committed level. Isn't that a good thing? I guess so.

I hope that both of us could forget all those fights, mistakes and misunderstandings between us. And shall start afresh. Happily ever after.

My fingers are so tired after typing all those. Yet still, I'm not stopping just yet.

So today, is a superior typical Saturday. I woke up super early. Continue to cry for more. Went out to meet Aris and Kaysean at Bishan Library. Did our DNT work, use the lappy. Cry for more again. Then went off around 2 something since Kaysean went off to somewhere. Me and Aris went AMK Hub, to have our lunch at Mac'D. Prosperity Burger WOOT WOOT. And I just realised AMK also have plenty of mats. Then went to find this badge shop. Couldn't find what I wanted though. The only thing I bought there, was the button plug for my crocs pump shoe and it's a rainbow icon. Ultimately cute !

Took the bus till Little India. Wanted to go to the Art shop near NAFA but it was close. So went to buy Starbucks then off to Aris house to put his stuffs down. Then went out again to Plaza Singapura to check out the scrap-booking second outlet and SPOTLIGHT. I bought a skull thingy to paste at my bag. So gonna bling up that skull lata. After that, I wanted to go home as I was so freaking tired.

Train down and I kinda reach SMB at 8. Something freaky happen when I was walking back home. And I really wanna bash him up, But I can't since there was a police behind us. I'm so gonna hunt you down bitch.

I feeling so sick in the stomach, much more sickiest ever and extremely down. My tongue hurts like so freaking bad, and I don't even know why.

Hmm, what shall I do now? :O

Toodles
-xoxo, ARINA

2010-01-31T22:25:00.001+08:00

I see no smile of me today. Tears drop non-stop. Where are strength that I needed most of time. Where did it go.

2010-01-31T10:16:00.000+08:00

" When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut, it will heal, but there will always be a scar."

Ring Ding Ding, I'm back you sizzle.

2010-01-24T18:28:00.002+08:00

Oh wee. It's been a great 2 weeks I didn't update. How awesome, huh. Lotsa things been happening really dramatically and there's the UP's and the DOWN's.

School is so school. It's so making me fatigue, lethargic, name all those tired-fucking-feeling-and-stressful words. Geez, it's so killing my brain cells.

Anyways, it's the Sunday man. Woke up late, and did some wash up and went to cook breakfast. I ate alot today I guess. After that, fought with my sista who's been cheating all Sunday long. I went to SP with a very grumpy face. I wish I wish I wish, bf is here. Hais.

My Saturday was awesome. I went out with bf C: It was totally an unplanned date but oh well we did enjoyed ourselves. He was the sizzling hot guy yesterday and always be every single day, hee C:

I just finish watching It's complicated though. Superb. How I wish again that I could watch this and eat ice cream with bf. Muahaha.

Tomorrow school damn. I'm so not ready.

P/S : Sooner or later, I'm gonna end my part time blogging. So no more blog at this time.

Toodles.
-xoxo, Arina

I love Hasni Jr. (Hahah, if he sees this, I'm so gonna get a smack on the ass)

Tears are words the hard can't express

2010-01-10T13:16:00.004+08:00

" What should I do next ? " , this question has been on my mind exactly ever since yesterday night. After each fight, I forgiven you since you started it first, I don't have any idea what to do next. That makes me emotional every single times. I cried all night long till I fall in a deep sleep which was the greatest feeling ever cause it's not the reality. Isn't that true? I wish that I could sleep and only wake up when everything is all fine already. Argument can be the weakest thing for me in a relationship.

It's really a suckish feeling. Yes, I'm avoiding. I can't face you now. It's really very unexplainable. And no, I don't hate you. I can't message you because it's hard for me somehow. I don't really know what to reply and react to it. If you were in my shoes, what are you expecting me to react huh.

So give a me break. I need to think. What's best for us for a healthy relationship.

Having this stupidity fight, does it gain anything? Absolutely, more anger and hatred as for me.

Sheesh, I can't stop crying about it.

Urgh, seriously, what should I do next.
Just forgive and forget and act nothing happen just like that ?

2010-01-02T13:22:00.002+08:00

It was the NEW YEAR yesterday. Plus it was my birthday as well. I wanna say thanks to all the people who wished me, I appreciate them alot through sms-es, facebook and tagged.

Yesterday:
Me and my parents and sista+her husband and aris and his parents, us, went to ECP. Sorta a picnic. But it was sure fun. My mum and his mum went swimming in the sea. While dads went fishing. Sista+husband just taking care of the stuffs and relaxing + shaking legs at the tent area. While me and aris. We played powder guns (ps: It's illegal, well who cares >.<), scootering around till we were both breathless, blow bubbles, play crossword puzzle, play in the sand, search for seashells and play with fire. SUPERB. He do this bomoh action. Haha, so tak menjadi.

After that, we went to Expo except for Aris. I guess he and his parents went home. I bought 2 tops. Wanted to buy crocs beach pump but the size were so limited. There's only size 5 and 9. Wth. So I guess buying at JB.

Today:
It's Isliana birthday. So today at 3 going to a wed-off. Gonna go get ready. Will update more if I want to. Hee, have a great day.

Toodles.
-xoxo, Arina

2009-12-31T16:55:00.002+08:00

It's New Year Eve ! And surprisingly, tomorrow is my birthday, sweet sixteen huh? More like sour bittery sixteen. I HATE people who reminds me of my birthday coming real soon. So make me feel more aging.

So so so, me and my parents and Aris and his parents went to JB in the wee morning. It's kinda sucks since I gotta woke up super early. First stop Larkin. Me and my mum saw this japanese kind. But he was mistaken as Aris. Hahah! We ate at Mac for breakfast. And the freaking chili sauce make my stomach hurt. Too much vinegar, bugger MacD. Next stop, Tesco. It was so fun shopping with Aris cause we joke around super loud. Haha. He drop at the supermarket for 2 times. How suay is that. And there's Christmas song. So I kinda remix it ya know.

"It's a season to be HOLLY. Falalalala-lalala.
It's a season to dig our nose. Falalala-lalala."

There this Christmas song sang by Beyonce. And I remix it with dig our nose. Seems like my favourite phrase of the day is 'dig our nose' And when there was a song, Justin Bieber - One Time, I remix that too. HAHA.

I was tired walking, so Aris pushed me while I was sitting on the trolley.

Thank goodness Aris entertain my nonsense cause I was so hyper.

Next stop, the STORE. Ate lunch. Shop for more stuffs.Then to Giant Plentong. More dig our nose songs. SUPERB !

Phew, what a long day. Tomorrow will be going to beach. I guess we're going East Coast once we got back from SG. And I still haven't complete my assignments. Good luck to me then.

Shall go off now.
Toodles.
-xoxo, Arina.

P/S : There are photos for today. You can view them in Facebook itself.
Hmm, I miss you *sad face*

2009-12-29T23:50:00.003+08:00

Today the day where we had our Amazing Race for the teacher's. Like what I post at the previous blog, I wasn't looking forward it huh? Well in fact, I was wrong. I had fun. I made a new friend, JX. Cool huh her name, she's sec 1 gonna be sec 2 next year. And the very surprising thing, our birthday falls on the same day. She so totally the best talking khakis for partnering.

So many funny things happen at the Singapore River. I laughed non-stop till my cheeks were red and achky.

After the event, meet up with lover. We went to LJS for our lunch. I was so freaking hungry. Cause the teachers only bought for us curry puffs and gardenia breads -.- omgosh, i just exposed it. HOHO.

I make a lot of lame jokes, good thing lover still laugh to it. HAHA, superb.

After that northpoint to ssc to sunplaza. Jyeah.

I went back home. I was about to rest when sister forced me to follow her go expo with her husband. In the end, I got lots a scolding from her. Wth. It's really a down to luck for me today. So not expecting it to happen. She asked me to rush and I kinda have not iron my clothes yet, she so freakingly rush me I just wore something very exposed. Super not comfortable. Then all the pervert men looking. MF.

So I shall end my post here. Since lover bug me to go to sleep. Heeee :)

Nighty nighty.
Toodles.
-xoxo, Arina :)

PS: I'm so loving you ^^

2009-12-28T22:42:00.002+08:00

School starting, DAMN !

Tomorrow there will be the Amazing race for the teachers. So not looking forward to it.

I had an AWESOME day today.

Sleeping now, since got to wake up super early tomorrow. Argh, so hate waking up superb early !

It's totally innocence

2009-12-27T01:11:00.002+08:00

Weee it's the wee morning of Sunday. I spend my Saturday very well I guess. I woke up at 10. Used the lappy to check out something and sleep back again. Woke up at 4pm, went to bath, cooked chicken curry and off to sleep again. And woke up around 11pm something. Lover kinda mad I guess, cause I didn't reply his message. Muahah. Oh well, I just feel like sleeping today. Hormone I guess. Sheesh, what big joke.

I wonder where we going tomorrow.

I'm so lovin the new blogskins. Just simply pink and safe grey. It's so me.

Gotta do something else now. I have no idea what to blog more.
Toodles, xoxo Arina.

P/S : I love you more every single day ^^

2009-12-25T00:08:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas to all my fellow friends, aunties and uncles and grandma.
Have a joyous year. And Happy New Year ^^

Went out with lover today to do our CH homework at CCK library. Then suddenly there's this announcement, that they gonna close in 30 minute time. What the heck. So I was hungry, went to LJS to eat my super late lunch.

Dad took half day of work. Brother took off. Everyone's at home wait except for my bro in law, I feel pretty comfy. My sot poor thing uncle came here, like so sudden.

Parents and sista going Geylang to market. And I'll be at home, shaking my leg and relaxing one corner. Probably will be watching Korea for sure. Muahaha.

Weekends, probably going JB I guess. No more class, feels so boring. I miss going though.

Monday gonna meet lover, again. Yayness ^^

Urgh, I seriously don't know what to blog. I feel so incomplete sia -.-"

P/S : "I always love when you're with me. And that's the feeling I never want it to end."
Love, Arina :]

I was down and lonely in the train

2009-12-23T22:35:00.003+08:00

I was so quite have a mixy feeling today. There's the sleepy feeling, annoyed, pissy, fucked up, guilty, down, lonely and last but not least HAPPY.

I woke up super early with my eyes half close. My violent mom dragged me out of bed. She beg me to go Chinatown with her and aunt. My legs were killing me, since I made a stupid decision to wear my leather flats. I was so bimbo in the morning. Met aunt at the Chinatown Mrt Station. I guess we reach there super early, most of the shops are not open yet. Went to People's Park Mall first. And I saw this fabulous shoes. And that shoe, I'm so gonna use it for school. There's studded at the top too. I like. So I quickly change my shoes since the pumps were totally aching my feet. Ate KFC for late breakfast, LOL !

And something changes my eyes as well. I beg mom to buy for me this vest plus a spag-short dress. So chio looking, I likey ^^ The quality quite good though cost me around 12 bucks.

Then suddenly, my mood went super down. Mom knew that I've got to meet up with Hidayah about the project. She kept saying hold on and hold on till it's already 12+ Sis called me up that Hidayah was outside the house. I was so pissed off already with mom. So mom let me to go off first. I cried out of anger and feeling so bad.

Met Hidayah at Mac and surprisingly I saw Rahayu there. I was surprised though. It's been donkey months since I last talked to her. And me and Hidayah did our projects. After that, we talk and talk and talk and talk like no one care. It was so a happy feeling. You know like a old best friend reunion?

Continue our talking at this void deck. Then went off since got this random elderly sat with us and looking so scarily. We saw a fat garfield ^^ So we plan to go out again, next Wednesday. Gonna catch a movie. Totally can't wait !

It sucks cause the coming week I'm so busy. And my birthday is coming, I'm so not looking forward to it.

Tomorrow going out with lover. Do our homeworks again ! Homework are so stressing me up. If only I can just burn all of them up.

Shall end my post here.
Toddles
-xoxo, Arina ^^

How sweet can he be? I let out a tear after reading it *smiles widely*
I hearts you like so totally ^^

2009-12-22T23:48:00.003+08:00

Weee it's Tuesday. Woke up super not that early, to meet lover again. Wanna settle our homeworks. Homework is the leceh-iest invention ever. I wonder who started homework.

*smiling widely* I've been in a good mood ever since morning and till now still feeling oh so happy. I don't know why. But isn't that a good thing. It widens your cheek which make your face more chubbier ^^

Tomorrow gonna do project meet-up with Hidayah. Totally gonna catch up with her :)

Hmm, nothing to blog more I guess.

So gotta run and eat late dinner again.
Toddles.
-xoxo, Arina

P/S : You're too good to be true. Your sweet sense of humour make an impact on my days when i see you. And turn my sadness into a smile I like the way you show your unselfish love to me. And that make you a one of a kind guy that ARINA loves ^^

PP/S : I'm so addicted with my blog song ^^
T-ara - Like the beginning.
Pardon me, it's K-POP. If you don't like, make yourself like it. Or else, -.-"

2009-12-21T23:26:00.002+08:00

Yayness ! Done doing my blog stuff. In the morning, I kinda delete all the codes which include the links. And dang, all gone. It was the greatest feeling ever when all the codes went gone. So got to do research tomorrow. I'll settle the links part tomorrow.

Half an hour ago, I almost done my scrapbook. Left a few more blings-blings. And it will be superb looking. I can't wait to get 2010 student handbook. I'll start to scrap book it once I get that in my hand. And probably gonna put green crocodile cover(?) It's irritating when the cover start to tear up. Not paper-proof. LOL.

I'm so freaking tired ever since morning. I even slept another hour more when actually I'm suppose to be getting ready to meet lover. Met him up since it's been a week we didn't meet.

Hmm, I don't know what to do tomorrow. If there's no plans, the only possible thing I'll be doing homeworks -.-, watch KBS all day long and use the lappy of course.

Yeay, it rain. How fantastic is that(!) It's gonna be a cooling night but too bad it wouldn't be that cozy, *ehemehem*.

I got the feeling that I can't wait for school to open. But I just hate the part when teachers ask for holiday assignment and which teacher taking us.

Gotta have super late dinner.
Toodles.
-xoxo, Arina

P/S: He look better and nicer today, me likey ^^

2009-12-20T19:27:00.004+08:00

It's already the end of the week. School starting very soon, and I'm just about to start to do my homework. I promised myself to finish it all by the end of the week or else I would starve myself or kill myself (hahah, I hope so.) *shakes head*

It's been a rough week though. Busy with personal stuff.

Saturday: Went to aunt's house. I tried out my cousin's wig, well I prefer the previous one. She'll might be bringing me to Kallang Leisure Park since she wants me to teach her how to ice skate. Oh not a problem :) Can't wait ! Then ate lotsa food. And continue watching my Korean episodes at youtube since I brought lappy along. In the evening, Aris and his parents came ^^

Sunday: Woke up 'early'. Then went to a wedding. Had a pretty long day there. I'm exhausted. Another big wedding event coming right after my birthday. Sheesh. The theme "Orang boyan nak kahwin" HAHA. *inside joke*

Went back homey. And went out with bro to SSC. It's so freaking packed.

Hmm, feeling very mixed up now.

Gotta run and eat dinner.
Toodles.

-xoxo, ARINA

Because of you ...

2009-12-18T14:29:00.003+08:00

Found this video, while browsing for more 2PM music videos. It's like a dance flash mob at Malaysia, Seems like it's at Kuala Lumpur. Right.. Very interesting though. Super hilarious ^^

Aiya, Singapore also have.

2009-12-16T22:48:00.002+08:00

After 3 years of waiting. Congrats to Xiaxue and Mikey :)
http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=1&p=8&v=268
(Do watch the video.)
Toodles.

2009-12-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

Owh, HAWT ^^

Follow Me

2009-12-14T23:59:00.005+08:00

This suppose to be yesterday post but I just save it in wordpad since mom switch off the connection super duper early :

It's Monday. I had my Monday Blues in the morning. And it sucks. So in the afternoon, went out with lover. He change my mood to no more Monday Blues and I'm so lovin' him. I'm super duper uper extremely sorry about what happen yesterday.

So our adventure starts, at Changi Airport. At first we seriously didn't have any idea where to go. Fyi, he was suppose to surprise me today. Haha, oh well. After 'exploring' , we went to Suntec City to window shopping and rematch the car racing game and again I won. Haha, I'm just good at racing game, dude. Then went to Orchard, since he insisted going to Botanical Garden. Frankly, it's been donkey years since I've been there.

We walked around and rest. And talk, talk ,talk, talk. Till we got lost finding the way out to the main road at Bukit Timah. Haha. And that when the adventure starts. Oh well, since I'm so good at 'reading maps' and exploring. I've save the day obviously. And the encouragement lover give helps me to be more energize since I was so feeling lost, super duper tired, pant-ting already and having cold sweat.

So we got out of that horrible place and was still lost. We were like stuck inside NTU. Luckily there's this lady helped us. Or else, I'll be crying there already. Took bus home, and we talk and joke and stuff like that.

Mum was being a pain in the ass. And it really pressure me up. And I really mean A-LOT. Till I have to run home.

It's been a great day though, hanging out with lover as to 'celebrate' our belated monthsary. It was so a physical day. I think I lost a few pounds though. Haha.

Tomorrow will be going with mom, aunties and couzies to Clarke Quay. Damn.

To lover :
"When everything is wrong, I come talk to you. You make things alright when I'm feeling blue. You are such a blessing and I won't be messing with the one thing that brings light to all my darkness."
Sarang hae ^^

Sexy or what ? Only [19+] can watch sia. Wth. There's like a [15+] version too. -.-"

So today,I just woke. Teehee. I'm tired. I woke up this morning and my mom told me to sleep back. The plan was cancel thanks to dad.

Sis just called just to ask what's my birthday. What kind of sister is this. Who doesn't know her own younger sister birthday. WTH !

2009-12-11T22:55:00.003+08:00

Since I'm so free, not at JB at all. I take this opportunity to blog about lotsa lotsa things, I think so. Sheesh, oh well let's start blogging.

I woke up when it's so the afternoon. Quickly bath, and cooked fried noodles with mom together-gether. Used my lappy for a long long time and after that watch my Korea till evening. Supposingly had to go JB, we came back home.

What happen actually. We went out of the house exactly at 7pm. When we were at expressway making our right, the car queue was so freaking long. Dad tried to you-know cut queue. In the end, mission failed. He overshot as he is way too front to cut in. So make our way home. Which is a good thing, can watch my Korea shows.

So now I'm blogging plus chatting with my 2 closest peopos which is Aris and bf. Talking insanely funny stuff with Aris right now. HAHA.

Well, today is Fariz and Aisyah's day. And it's their 2nd Monthsary. Congrates to both of you.

So probably, going out tomorrow with family. Geez.

Less than 15 minutes, it's already a month with bf.

I just wanna say ;

It's already been a month. And both us face a lot of up and downs.
" If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you.
When mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me."
P/S: it's from a song. Heheh.
You've always been on my mind since the first day I met you. You are truly spectacular.
I love you more today than all our yesterdays put together.

I'll end my post here. Have great day people :)

2009-12-10T20:55:00.003+08:00

"You can give without loving, but you can never love without giving. "

Will be M.I.A starting from today.
Will be back blogging on Monday onwards.

2009-12-08T23:57:00.004+08:00

Woke up around 11.30am. I was so sleepy, wanna continue to sleep but gotta meet bf, since he left his keys with me. We did 'homework' and watch DVD, "Because I said so" Hehe.

Went back home at 5pm. Bought my junks before I make my way home. Gonna watch "A Walk to Remember" next. Hehe, I need lotsa tissues.

Had a superb day with bf ^^
Love you so muchy :)

I'll take you to my room

2009-12-07T22:22:00.006+08:00

It's already Monday. Couple more weeks school is reopening. And my homeworks are still untouch. How fantastic is that. So so today, went out with bf and the bros featuring ayeez gf and the gf's aunts. Something drama-mama happen just now. Oh well, boys will be boys.

Went home first since they wanna go sheesha-ing and look around Singapore. I gotta go home early or else gonna get another lecture by my dad. Many things happen when I was in the bus. Superb disgusting and annoying ladies. One dig her nose and two kick my leg with her high heels several time and three a nurse sitting super close to me but then beside her were nobody. Damn, what's wrong with people nowadays?

Once I reach home,had dinner and switch on my lappy ^^

I've been watching all the episodes at the MTV webby, MTV 16 and pregnant. It's about stories of pregnant 16 year old girls in high school. Each episode follows a different teenage girl in every each episode beginning when she is around 6-8 months pregnant. The episode usually ends when the baby is a few months old. First up Maci's story, Farrah, Amber, Ebony, Whitney and Catelynn.

All of the girls took care of their baby with either their mom or boyfriend. Except for Catelynn. She and her bf decided to look into adoption. And I bet she is strong to give away her baby.

Here they are Catelynn and Tyler. Both of them are really heroic to me. They gave their daughter up, just so she would have the best life styler ever. And to me thats tremendously amazing.

Hmm, I'm so hungry. I wanna go eat another round of desert ^^

Anyways,

Me heart Syaridzwan ^^

2009-12-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

NO MORE LONG NAILS ! :(

If we didn't talk that doesn't mean I don't care

2009-12-06T22:35:00.004+08:00

OK girl. Do you have to be so feeling feeling towards me? I felt so disgusted when you out of sudden hold my hand and followed me to the toilet ! What's wrong with you today sia?
I don't even know you la, mf.

Had class. And I went in late. Or else I wouldn't want to go at all. Oh well since it's the last lesson. Got nag by my dad because I slept late and whether I wanna go class or not. Haiya, so pissed in the morning already.

Then brother fetch me and we blast off the car speaker. It was fantastic, all driver's eyes on us ^^ Surprisingly, there's aris and parents.
Went to SSC since Aris wanna go buy his 'mould' His was heart and mine were chiffon pan. I'm going to bake chocolate cake with some awesome flavour spread.

Thank God I'm not sick. I getting busy in the mean time.

Toodles

I wana play and rock your wrold like pornastar can?

2009-12-05T23:45:00.003+08:00

I didn't had any sleep yesterday. At 5am, quickly bath, do some quick break fast. And off to JB. My eyes were so CHINE. And I hate it cause many Chinone, been asking me this and that at JB. Damn how irritating is that.

Had lunch at L.C Catering. And I saw this bapok. I told my mum to look at that 'pretty lady' by the back. When the bapok turns, my mum choke. My uncle saw that bapok and made a comment.

" Wahh, make up not bad much better from bride and your sista. But where's the bra? Did he or she forget the bra?"

Haha, all of us were choked then laugh super bad.

Then suddenly got this waitress. I ask where the spoon, she reply like a guy sia. Damn, she almost make me geez in my pants. HAHA.

And that Indon waiter, haha. Shall not say a thing, sort of a inside joke between me and him. Hmm, seems like I made a friend. *unbelievable face*

Went back home during the evening.

Still had time to go to KINGS and Meiji Annual sale. Bought lotsalotsa junks and ice creams ^^

Now I'm feeling so sickish. Gonna be sick soon, yayness-not. Feeling agitated and the feeling of stabbing someone's back. I feel so evil now. Grrrrrr.

And Afiq, you're such a disappointment. LMAO.

Tomorrow gonna be suckish since there's class. Going out with my brade ^^ find that expensive betta and join that friggin competition !

It's a remedy.

2009-12-04T16:45:00.006+08:00

3 of us enjoyed playing this. The sound effect is so friggin scare us. It really gives an impact of a real war. DAMN !

More pichas at facebook.

So yesterday, went out with the 2 couzies. Woke up super early since I have to meet this kiddo at CCK Mac. Oh well, thanks for the lending your ears. Even though you're just Primary 5, you're a good cousin. Haha, a lot of things happen at CCK Mac. Let's see there's a part where we laugh so hard and loud until the cleaner asked us to quiet down, the crying part, the phone call, calling the uncontactable and the pissing part. Oh ya, the part where this person chews her food. HAHA.

Met Aris at SDC traffic light. It was so paisey shouting out his name, in the end he didn't hear it cause of earphones. So the WTF.

So we bought the basic packages which include bus tour, SDC admission to all galleries and 1 I-Mex movie. We watch 'Call of the Wild' in 3D so we wore the uncomfortable 3D glasses. The person who invent that is so idiot.

After that went to all the galleries. We learnt a lot of genius stuffs. And there's also like trials. Pistol shooting, paintball, batch making and sure win lucky dip. We did all except paintball. Me and Aris were so psycho, we both did batch making. So we have to colour it and decorate. Oh my goodness. In the end, it was nice though. As for the lucky dip, I won a clock. A stupid cheapo clock. Aris and kiddo got notebooks. HAHA !

Aris made his way home, me and kiddo go to BPP. Gee, the people there seriously asking for trouble. No need to look up and down what. Bugger.

Kiddo almost lost her way home. So as the eldest, have to send her back. Then aunt ask me to stay first so that she will send me back home by car.

It was an enjoyable day. The only part I hate was knocking my head while playing the army tank video game. Damn, my head still hurts.

Yeah, it's Friday ! The day where bf comes back from camp. So went out with mum and sis, since they wanna do some groceries. Saw lotsalotsa familiar peopos.

After that went home, around 2 met up with bf. I was sick in the stomach since morning, after meeting him today, it's fine now ^^ He look so different in the sense of body size and hair style. I prefer his hairstyle now that before. Met up for awhile yet it was worth it ^^

Hmmm, I'm feeling super sleepy now, since it has been drizzling non-stop. Shall have a nap.

Tomorrow going off to JB, I'll be super tired after I've reach home.

It's so weird. Currently I can smell the scent of bf. Gosh, me so missing him suddenly.
Ok shall turn in now. Toodles.

And last but not least :

Happy 15th birthday Farah !
Have a blast birthday, May Allah bless you.
Hope you do well this year same goes to next year.
You rock my toots, woman ^^
PS: For sure she won't be expecting me to do this. Oh well, it's the thought that counts :)

Will it happen?

2009-11-29T20:50:00.004+08:00

It's already the last day of a week, SUNDAY ! Suppose to have class, I was just too plain lazy. So I slept all the way till mid afternoon, me feeling extremely depressed and disappointed. Mom went in the room, wake me up to get ready to go to a wed off at Jurong.

Met couzys at Jurong itself. All of the them were wearing 'casual'. So not fair sia. It was so purplelish,pinkish, eeeyuck. The colour combination really sucks. And the food was oh my gosh, not so tasty though. I overheard that the wedding cost 21K. Dude, you gotta kidding me? So expensive, wedding so not up to the mark. Laugh My Ass Off.

After the wed-off, went to my aunt house. Had fruit buffet ^^ Watch KBS WORLD, all the way. All has been influenced by me. HAHA.

Went home after that. Feeling so not good. I kinda lost my voice right now, was so foolish of me. I know I have a bad sore throat, I still go eat my aunt's curry. I end up losing my voice. Fuck yeah.

Everything is at a different route. You know, that I'm a type a person who doesn't forgive and forget easily. If you knew it at the first place, why you still do it again. Oh why, you're so making things more complicated.

Let just say, he treat people differently :D

If only I could do croth kicking to you

2009-11-28T22:11:00.005+08:00

I'm so exhausted.

I'm sick, yet again. fuck yeah -.-"

I'm so not in a good mood.

Run along or else.

Anyways, NTU rugby's captain is the vamp

^_^

May it last long

2009-11-26T20:19:00.003+08:00

It's THURSDAY ! Went out with bf today. Spend lotsa time with him, since I won't be seeing him for a long long long long time, probably like more that a week? Oh well, hope that he'll have a blast birthday tomorrow and and be fine during camp.

Oh well, we really walk alot today till I have to change my plasters. Haha.

Got to go back home real 'early' since I've got a lot of chores to do at home. And it's so not fun.

And yeah, I got followed home for the second time. What wrong with guys this days -.-" It's so freaking me out. Luckily, I found this guy to help me. Or else, wow I don't even want to imagine it.

Tomorrow is Hari Raya Haji ^^ Wish all Muslimin and Muslimat a joyous Hari Raya Haji.
Not sure how's the plan goes tomorrow, everything is so unplan.

And not forgetting birthday boys ^^
Farah's bf, Awun. Happy 15th birthday, dude.

And and did I forgetting someone? Hmmm, I wonder who. Haha.

Of course, the guy who make me go gugugaga. Haha! Indeed it is, Syaridzwan ^^.
May Allah bless you well and have a blast birthday once again. Alamak, now I feel like giving him a tightest hug. HAHA !

I realise that I didn't gave him anything even a small diy card which is so thoughtful enough. I felt bad but then flash back time I remember treating him way before his birthday. Alamak, exposed. HAHA

Oh ya, it;s kak anah birthday today, fyi my brother's gf :)

Hmm, I don't know what to type next. The only thing I wanna say is, can't wait to meet bf next 2 weeks, gonna watch 'Because I said so' DVD and and do the shitty homeworks.

Toodles, have a great week everyone.

And yeah, watch this. The grey parrot is so clever just like Einstein. I wanna own one too :(

2009-11-25T20:05:00.000+08:00

" I need to stop thinking of you. "

-How does that affect you, huh?

Hey Slim Shady

2009-11-25T17:48:00.001+08:00

Tuesday.
Was the tiring day ever ^^

Wednesday.
Aunt came.
Play the PS1 games that Afiq gave. So old school, I like ^^
Watch dramas.
Use the lappy till I'm so sick of it.
Went downstairs just to cut off Ashley nails. And what I get back was a long scratch from Ashley. Seriously, thank you very much for it it Ashley. It's so freaking pain, and all bloody. Stups, cat.

I miss you too, Hidelicious.

I feel so missed out, like again. I feel like I'm facing a problem, but I have no freaking idea what the problem lies on. Hmmm, search me.

I still have not yet set the date since I'll be going out with my 2 best couzys, Isliana and Aris. She really pressing me to set the date real quick.

Good luck to PSLE kiddos ^^

Oh Kyle and Tommy, now then you wanna contact. MYOFB, thank you.

Toodles.

All night long

2009-11-23T16:17:00.005+08:00

It's MONDAY! No monday blues or anything because there's isn't any school program or anything that is associate with school. J-yeah, the holiday mood has arrive.

Woke up 'early', do some wash-up and the next thing I saw at my sister trolley cart is my PS1 games. I install it back in the living room using the Plasma tv. Damn, the games are so old school. I wonder where my other console, is it with Afiq? I so want it back, since I'm gonna play some Tekan games with my brother.

Haven't eat a thing since morning, wait except for this ice cream I just ate. Still waiting for my mom to finish cooking 'Asam Pedas Ikan Pari aka Sting Rays' ^^ Superb, yum yums.

Hmmm, I'm so bored already using the lappy.

Someone birthday is coming right up ^^
So should I do it there or here? Oh man, someone please spare me !

I need someone like you

2009-11-22T13:06:00.002+08:00

Woke up real late today, since yesterday was the BBQ thingy.

So yesterday, supposingly I have to meet bf at 9am. I was 30 mins late cause woke up late. Haha, sorry man. Slack around somewhere since it was still early to meet the others.

After meeting up with everyone, we rode on the Mrt to Pasir Ris and made our way to Downtown. The atmosphere was better than East Coast. After we do the preparation, went to have a walk with bf at Downtown, I saw Rahayu, Harmeet, Reena and Rahayu's sister. Hmm, I wonder what they were doing there. After that we walk here and there, one end to the other.

Haha, there's one part, about the coca cola zero -.-" Haha! I shall not exposed anymore.
Then, the part when we wanna go E-Hub!

Then at night, some 'people' make a nuisance of themselves. Which make some of us to be so fucked up.

Parents fetch me home since I can't overnight. ^^

OK, shall post more later. Gonna get ready to JB. Toodles.

I'll be lovin' lovin' lovin' you a long time, monopok :)
Thanks for the sacrifices.

Hard to be

2009-11-19T14:25:00.006+08:00

This guy is Chris Cendana, he's really a talented guy. I love his acoustic cover ^^

Not a lot of people came to school today, half a class gone.
Thanks to Afiq, for being the companion of mine today in school. Um, I try to heed your advice. As you can see, I can't do anything. I'm just stuck up in life.

Went home straight away, well I don't want to be caught in the rain.

Mom cook lunch specially for me. She wanna apologise for making me so sad yesterday. She said that she's very concern about me. She told me that she dream about me doing stuffs that should be done after you're married. Hmm, you know what it is.

I told my mom not to worry. I know what I'm doing as long I don't make a shame to the family.

Still I feel so up-tight -.-"

I hate hate hate hate people with kiddeo personality.

Hmmm, I'll cont blog later. Toodles

Yo yo, I'm back. Went to Chai Chee for warehouse sale then off to Expo. I enjoy shopping there ^^

Haha okay gtg now. My eyes are heavy already ! Toodles.

It really makes me so unsatisfied

2009-11-18T21:13:00.003+08:00

School has never be fun, without Hidayah. I just can't lie. Even though there's complicated stuff happening, I appreciate her as a really hao pen you :)

Hidayah was right, my face doesn't look happy as before and yeah problems.

All the reason lies to my bills. Wakaka. And my typical attitude. Ya right- not. I didn't even throw tantrum or anything and she said I was being rude. That give me an idea, I'm not the Arina, Arina used to be. It seems true but I just can't accept the fact that she wanna put me in a girls home. That doesn't answer to the way I behave. I didn't put bad names on my family reputation or do stupid idiot stuffs like what my CLEVER sister did. Go shopping mall steal stuff. Coming back home so late then got into trouble and more shitty stuffs. Habis, all her secrets have been exposed. But seriously, what more my mom want? I have a life, Tuhan give me this life to explore more things, and and learn the meaning of life independently. Mom, you can't expect me to sit home, listen to you, surfing the net numerous hours like a geek, watching tv like a dork for numerous hours,doing all the chores and my pregnant sister do nothing. There's not freaking fair. It's just so heart breaking when mom keep talking to me like this. It make me feel so discouraging to live again.

Oh man, my eyes are teary already.

I wish I could just sleep and never wake up again.

I may sound problematic to you, so just shut up and be concern, stop being a childish dud. I hate coaxing people when I didn't even do a thing to break your heart.

And think positively. Your mindset just sucks.

Hais, all I need now is a shoulder to cry on badly.

Because I said so

2009-11-15T09:41:00.002+08:00

It's already Sunday. How time flies. And today there's class. Oh god, I'm so not in the mood to go. But it's fine cause next week I'm not going, thanks to class chalet.

Yesterday went off to JB with 3 families was the VAMP ! So we met Isliana's family at Kota Raya, cause I need to fix my flat shoes. and buy stuffs. After that off to Sbai Sbai restaurant to wait for Aris's family to come. The main thing about the makan is that to celebrate my sis birthday and her wedding anniversary. You can view the photos at my facebook.
Here's the direct link : http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=136998&id=727190842&l=c8248a1673
I really did enjoy myself plus not forgetting I extremely miss my man. HEHE.

I woke early today. Never wonder why though. But it's good. LOL. I was so bored that I wanna find out what's my serial name nickname. So there's this generator, and the result is :

And there you go. See you in jail, you sick motherfucker.

Tiny Tim the Fluffer

Bastard or what, kena motherfucker. Haha.

Hmm, I feel like watching Sex and the City [-_-] I need the power of maturity.

My man currently at Malaysia because of his gramps. So missing him so muchy. Take care of yourself there, love ya * blow kisses* Chey. Haha

Gotta run now. Toodles.

2009-11-14T14:25:00.001+08:00

Just a quick post before I'm off to JB for 2 days :)

Woke up super early, I have no idea. I just remembered there's Family Carnival in my primary school. Oh man, I kinda miss it. I already made a promise that I'll be going this year. Nevermind there's always next year. Muahaha.

Read my bf's blog. What a sweet boy. Hehe. Gonna miss you too, pakcik :)

Gotta run now. Toodles.

you better watch out

2009-11-13T20:37:00.003+08:00

Woke up super early since my man picking me up before meeting the rest. How far we walk to meet the rest, we would always still be the first. Betul tak?

School was fine. At least the lesson today was A-OK. I realise I did good for my mother tongue. Haha. English too. Maths? Nahh, no hope. I even had to do retest just now.

After school, meet up with the rest and off to my man's crib. ^^
Something happen. And it's so sucked-up. Haiz.

My man send me off at SMB Mrt and he went to his grandmama house. I know mom is concern about my whereabouts. But I really can't accept you saying that this is so not my daughter, Arina. What sup with that? Sheesh.

Tomorrow off to JB for 2 long days. For sure effingly missing my man.

Hmm, I'm so tired now. Wanna go back to sleep now. Toodles.

Oh ya, Happy 24th birthday to my sister. And Happy 17th birthday to my ol'buddy Shah. Have a blast birthday !

A good cry to relieve off

2009-11-12T23:00:00.002+08:00

School is one of a kind. We had to face this freaking teacher for the whole day. My ear drums were switched off when he start talking. I love love maths class. Cause through out the lesson, I've been chatting with Morrie :) Girl, we've seem to be closer for 3 mins. Hahaha, remember that?

After school, my man waited for me under the block since it was raining. My heart was relieved seeing him today. And I have no freaking idea, why is that so. Make our way to his crib with a few friends too. And that is when it starts. I've agreed. I cried when he explained why he's into me. Haha, the sign of being truthful and loyal. Isn't it true ? 121109 :)

So I make my way home early, cause I can't stand mum's nagging already.

I was having a nap then mum drag me out of the bed, plead me to go Expo with all. -.-" My hair was like so shitty. Guess what, I just bought Snapple. All the items were so making me go gugu gaga.
Then had late dinner at Syed's.

I got to go school tomorrow, to ease off the feeling of missing you. Haha. Or else, I won't be going heheh ^^

Gotta run now. Toodles :)

Be it my heart we got issues

2009-11-11T20:14:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, after school went to SBPL to meet sista there. She wanna read baby books. HAHAH. After that she treat me to Pastamania for the second time. Then gossip gossip about some stuffs.

Today, school was fine. Escape from school, and met up with mum and dad. In the evening went off to SSC with sista. She wanna buy the partay stuff. Saw 3 matreps, dah tua sey. Sachok-not. HAHA.

Seems like not a lot of people coming tomorrow.

I got a decision to make and I'm still thinking about it.
Toodles ;)

2009-11-09T21:49:00.002+08:00

Now, I'm so into Kristinia Debarge - Future Love. The lyrics are quite meaningful too.

So today was the day the Dnt students went to IKEA. It kinda sucks cause we got to ride the public transport. The school didn't provide the trip. Impostures isn't it?

I had fun hanging out at IKEA :)

After that,went to hang around the Tampiness neighbourhood, since Ayeez wanna meet his girl.

Then something awfully meaningless prank happen, which made some of us out of mind !

I reach home late and mum been nagging non stop. And it's so a ear pain.

Brother is now on the phone with his girlfriend. She just asked me for a threesome date for bowling and baking. I can't wait to spend time with brother and kak anah too. Gonna bake white chocolate cookies too if I'm not wrong.

Gonna rest now, since there's school tomorrow. Sheesh.

Fascination

2009-11-08T12:21:00.004+08:00

It's been a pleasure day yesterday. Waking up early on a resting Saturday. Insane but yeah, I really woke up super duper early.

The BBQ-outs were enjoyable though even though there's come conflicts.

I definitely enjoy the walk with monopok. Haha.

In the end, I have to go first since I can't sleep over. So went to aunt house to meet with all the family members there. It was long bus ride. Damn. Well, at least I make one new friend. I thought the lady beside me were like one type adult minah. But she was okay.

I can't make it next Saturday chalet. But I can't wait for the 21st, which is the class one, and I'm so sure that I'm so gonna sleep over.

My old buddy message me yesterday while I was sleeping. It was so weird. All of the sudden he message. I wonder what his motive messaging me. Don't tell me he wants me back. Oh my god. This guy damn bugger shit. Go back with your minah china la !

Gonna get ready for class now. Toodles.

3 is a charm

2009-11-06T19:43:00.002+08:00

School was utterly fine. Just insane cause there's 4 hours of DNT.So all of us were in the computer lab doing the 'CorelDraw'. Some of us just choose to be doing our things. Hah, like me!

I was having my nap just now. And Aris message me asking when the tournament, I totally forgot about it. Oh man, sorry Aris. I told you already to call me.

So parents off to JB in the morning, and I so gonna miss it, but nevermind. Cause I'll be enjoyin myself at East Coast. I need to wake up really early still. That sucks.

2009-11-05T22:19:00.003+08:00

It's been hours, I hang out at the window pane. The wind chills me down, and I felt so calm, relaxed. I just felt like I was floating or flying somehow.

After I step on the ground, the mood swings got back.

I'm tired after going out with sister and bro-in-law. Well I enjoyed myself while shopping around for baby clothes. Frankly, I can't wait for that baby to pop. But not yet as a aunty. I went gugu gaga over the baby stuffs.

They even enlight me up with a treat of Pastamania. Thank you my lovely sister, even though you can be a heart pain kiddo.

I just finish with my assignments too. What I need now is just a shoulder to cry on.

Oh man, I really don't know what to do now.

Go dig your ears

2009-11-05T16:24:00.002+08:00

학교는 괜찮습니다.

나 는 내게 돌아왔습니다. 나는 우리가 사는 좀도둑이란 뜻이 없습니다. 하지만 내가 틀렸습니다. 나는 시간 낭비라고 해야 할 시간? hais, 그렇지는 않 승리했지만 당일도 모르겠습니다. "자네가 전화를 걸어 나는 밖으로 나가고\'m 우리 언니와 엄마가 내게 버그를 함께 가자는 초대를 받았습니다. 그리고 당신은 무슨 이유로 나가셨 1위. 전 할말을 잃었습니다. 빌어먹을. 내팽개치이었습니다. 매우 내팽개치 !

그래서 나는 집에 돌아 오랑우탄 먼저 내 감정을 보자. 나는 너무 화가 나 있습니다. 괜찮아, 지금은 뛰겠습니다. 언니를 다음과 같이 cwp, 일부 아기를 조사한 결과 말입니다

2009-11-04T16:05:00.001+08:00

I skipped today ! Cause something happen in the house. At least, it give me a day to rest from all the hectic studying days.

I'm annoyed, freakingly pissed off with mom and sis.

2009-11-01T21:05:00.001+08:00

All currently pissy meow

2009-11-01T12:13:00.002+08:00

Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Is it true that it was you?
"It's been in mind all this while"

Woke up pretty face, it was the best sleep ever. Wash up and have breakfast. Mom's chicken was the BAM. It's been years I've crave for it. Well she didn't cook it often cause my dad dislike chicken. He's the meat type of person.

Having class later. And I so don't feel like going. I feel like escaping. HEHEHEH !

Gonna bath now. Adios.

2009-11-01T00:51:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN ! :D
There's Simpson Halloween Marathon and I enjoy every seconds of it.

Saturday
Argue with mom about not going out. It's was plain Satuday.

There's gonna be a wed-off at Lagun Sari later. And I also have my class. I hate the time clash. I wish wish I hope I won't be going to class !

Monday
There will be school. The extended programme. DAMN! But after school, going out ! Can't wait to buy those flats.

Good day y'all.

"You got your laki, then shut up. Don't be drama mama okay. We people are sick knowing all of it. Go fuck with more lakis. Isn't that your wish drama mama? Perhaps hooker despo will be a nicer name for you darl "

2009-10-30T14:24:00.002+08:00

" OH PLEASE ARINA, DREAM ON.
IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN "

-Quote Me

real slow.

2009-10-29T20:23:00.002+08:00

Great success to the SembExperience. Had fun 'socializing' and there's part where I really go mad. Thanks to Syafiqah, I own you big times ! :) So after the event, went straight home to get change to buy shoes.

In the end when to monopok's house, since they want to lepak. Met Monopok first. And we challenge ourselves over the DAYTONA car racing. HAHA! SO FUN cause I kinda...uh-hum uh-hum.

I had fun with girls ! Even though we kinda sucks while playing the games. HAHA !

My luck went down when I wanted to buy my shoes ! Damn, I felt so freaking down. I felt like I want to faint. But thanks to MONOPOK ! He accompanied me. Or else, I'll be crying home :D

Overall,hectic day today ! Tomorrow is the talent show and I'm hosting. I'm so nervous! Just embarrassed when it comes to the mic. Afraid that my voice will sound different :|

Sniff soap

2009-10-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

I'm tired. I'm speechless once I have reach home. I didn't open my mouth to say greetings to mom too.

Sorry, I've broke the promise.

It is going to be a 'exhilarating' day tomorrow. Since everyone having E-Learning day. I'm stuck in school doing the SembExperience. I'm not sure I'm gonna do well for the speaking to P6 students. They can be just as rude you might think. Gotta wake up superb early. Have to reach school at 6.45 am. DAMN !

Mom bought her new phone today. YAY for her.

Friday is SembTalents Show. And can't wait to host for the first time. Got to buy those C&K shoes tomorrow !

Ever thought of wearing bikini under a dress?

2009-10-26T14:45:00.002+08:00

It's Monday. And there's school of course. Nothing much to be done in school, just sit down at the ISH the whole day till my butt aches. Lectured about sex education and NPC presentation. Morrie missed it ! HAHA :D

This week is like the last week of school for Sec 1, 2 and 3NT. Super duper not fair. And this week is so freaking busy for me. There's NE activites, SembExperience and the Talentshow. I'm gonna be the MC. Believe it or not ! Me being the MC. Gosh, tough work man.

After telling this to mom, she was depressed. Cause I've promise to accompany her for passport collection on FRIDAY. DAMN ! Freaking packed la. Bila mau slacking ni. Ishh.

Ummm, I've got nothing in mind right now. Toodles.

Your worst enemy could be your best friend, and your best friend your worst enemy.

2009-10-24T20:49:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a great FRIDAY. There's no school since it was moderation day. I had no plans so went out with members :) Heheh, I had lot-sa fun. But too bad gotta go home earlier again cause going JB.

After buying all the groceries, we went to Banafee Cafe. Then got this 2 wild dogs. Aris thought they were fighting. I bet with him that the dogs were flirting and they gonna mate real soon. Oh yeah, they really mated. For countless of times. Aris didn't even want see them do it. HAHAHA ! What a thing.

Today, typical Saturday ! Did the NE project. Afiq pisses me off. But still fun. I fell down while walking at the pavement. And the grass area were damn deep. I thought I was going to die. HAHA! When SSC to kill some time. But parents insisted me to follow them go out. I really regret that.

Wanna say a big thanks to monopok, for entertaining me while waiting for the prince and princess
:D

I'm tired and sleepy now. Gotta run.

Scream me out

2009-10-22T14:41:00.005+08:00

I'm so proud with 3A2 cause we won FIRST in inter class position. You can find these in most of my friend's blog. Extremely proud. I just played once, as I was sick and MONOPOK kept pressing me to play one game.

Today, early morning MONOPOK message me whether want to go school or not. I was so the keling kept asking MONOPOK to come and not to come. At last MONOPOK came to school, for the sake of me. Muahahah!

So today check out our overall marks. Well I failed 2 subjects and got both "U" grades, I got myself top 10 in class position. And 34 in level position. I find it acceptable though cause I'm in 3A2.

I don't feel like going out tomorrow. MONOPOK for the last time! keep pressing about it. I was really pissed when he said you'll be going cause I tell them already. WTH sia.

Haiya. 4 days already and I haven't eat a thing. My stomach could only accept fluids.

Well well, monopok is now pissed because I put faggot instead of his name. And he is so sad over it. Alahai. My dearest MONOPOK, my faggot doesn't mean in a bad way as in gay gay.Cause YOU'RE THE MAN ! Remember when I said I hate you, but didn't mean the hate hate really hate. So you shood me off, not to disturb. YAYA, nevermind. Guys need space. And about the tomorrow, yeah I was indeed pissed still even though you said you faked about it. Ok fined, I'll forgive and even forget about it. I'm frankly very SORRY okay, if you still don't find it sincere. What other ways huh?

Oh my, my fever is worsen. great. I might just die from it. Habis cerita.

We did again, once again. I'm so special

2009-10-18T21:35:00.002+08:00

Woke up early because the CC had karaoke. That disturb my beauty sleep ! Mini brains~

Had class today. And I miss Nabil's open house, which I really really want to go. After class, accompanied brother around SG searching work out stuff.

Went to JB. Just makan angin there. I ate a lot today !

Oh well this girl message me saying that a guy, from class asking for my no. Wtf, miyang.

Monday a total no plan. I wanna go eat somewhere nice. Or catch a movie, Sorority Row.

If you don't like me, there's nothing I can do newsflash bitch, I don't live to please you.

2009-10-17T19:02:00.002+08:00

It's Deepavali today. Happy Deepavali to all Indians. And have a joyous day.

This morning at 8.30am , mom drag me out of the bed. Guess what? We woke up that early cause we went to Harvey Norman sale at Benoi Road. After that went to Arab St. After that to Bedok for lunch. Went to my uncle's house as well. And went to Kaki Bukit to check out baby stuff. And back home. We travelled around 100++ km. Imaging driving a car to east and west. Fuyoh.

The environment in the house seems peaceful. I bet all of them have slept.

And for once, she is doing what she wants to do with caring what everyone thinks.
-Quote Me.

mother stop being merepek

2009-10-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

Ever felt you've been molest by a girl? Well I did. Just now. I don't know it's a luck or not. HAHA. I was taking the bus home when I sat beside this not suspicious looking woman.Suddenly I feel like someone touching me, I stared down, press the bell and alight the bus. Fuck you woman. You make me feel so disgusted.

Oh yeah, so many strangers disturb me today. So strange. I got called by matreps 2 times. FAGGOT! Stop whistling la,you think I'm your dog to look. No brain.

Well well, today was a unplanned day. Went to monopok house with the others. Just lazing around. I cook there for the second time. And I also taught Farah, how to cook for the second trip of fried rice. She did good, obviously thanks to me. Muahaha. I went off after they went to karaoke. I wanna join too but too bad, got to go to JB.

I read this blog. I don't know what to comment though. This is what I thought.
Is the person a two faced? Who is she to masuk campur all this craps. So what she's not satisfied. IS IT YOUR LIFE? If not, then back off. You miss the old personality, fyi do you know that you change? Main bual pasal orang je, sendiri tak sedar diri.

Alright, I'm off to play games. Toodles.

2009-10-16T12:27:00.002+08:00

After a long day of Raya-ing which is yesterday, today is the good day for a rest. There's no school today since it's marking day and same goes on monday. Yesterday was the BAM ! I really did enjoy myself. Cheers to you guys :)

I got a blister beside my toe. And my last pingy seems to be over-size.

Gramps, coming and I hate it even my mum agrees.

And great news ! My sister called this morning while I was sleeping like a log. She said it was a baby boy. I was like " Told ya, you didn't believe my instinct" Cause I always dream about it's a baby boy and the name was called Fairuz. HAHA. My sister didn't agree. Everyone said it was girl. YOL PAK !

Baking brownies today :)

Good day y'all

2009-10-14T23:36:00.002+08:00

One more paper to go. And it's Dnt, hope that I'll pass.

Tomorrow, people are coming to RAYA at my house. And they should be honor cause that's my first time having some a big group into the house. Can't wait to go Raya, with them too. And that's my first time raya-ing. Believe it or not. I know, I'm not gerek.

Today, went to do mum's passport. And we shop around. I found this shop, having a sale. The whole retail shop was on sale at 20% ! Well, I got to buy 2 dresses. Really simple yet elegant and it's affordable.

Got back home, wash up. And I went to sleep. Suddenly got this faggot called me. HAHA ! Orang tengah shoik2 tido, this faggot call.

Something commotion happen. It's so drama-mama and so episode by episode. And they can be such good actors.

Good day. And yeah, I burnt my thumb yesterday.

2009-10-12T20:12:00.002+08:00

Having sleepless night? No one to accompany you to sleep because you're lonely without your companion? Or whatever reasons, that you have difficulties sleeping?

Here you go, a HALF body pillow shape. How's that. It's so comfy that it feels like your companion body. Buy now ! China Hotline : 999

3 more papers to go and here's goes freedom. Been stressing up all the topics that gotta study and none is official stuck in my head. All the best for my Physics tomorrow.

Just came back from SSC with my mum. Went GIANT and there's group of minahs and mats. My mum stared at them and said vulgarities to them. The minahs look at both of us. And I gave them a stare, I said. What see see? Who are you to give such a stare, I know it's your eyeball but must stare till that long ah. Not satisfied is it? Then they talk to their mats, craps. Their mats also bastard. Look at me, as if like asking for numbers. Yol pak !

My mind has been running wild these days. About this and that. No, I have no one to crush on. Cause that's stupid. wasting time. why wait when some others are waiting for you. It's so wild that I can go GAGA.

Okay, gotta end now.

2009-10-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

Jacko's kids gonna raise fund, for this 2 legged dog. With the money, they gonna buy him a new mechanical legs. How sweet. Credits : tmz.com

Tiring day. Went up mid-morning off to JB. Went back in the afternoon and after 2 hours of rest, went out to Mustafa Ware-House sale. And courts. Just looking for a brand new camera. After then to Changi. That is when I start sulking because of my mum. Uhhhhh~

I'm tired. Blog will resume after exams.

I'm so gonna flung history. YAYNESS :)

2009-10-09T21:28:00.001+08:00

Will update after the exams. Best of luck everyone !
Chee-toos :)